also dead

wow. the second sudden death in two weeks. horst isnt even barried yet (monday at 10 am) and we got word today, dass mario passed away. a friend went in to wake him up this morning at the homeless shelter and found him cold. he was another from cafe chance. i wasnt as close to him as to horst, but it still is sobering to hear. i know he was interested in God, but thats about it. horsts death is still fresh in my mind. his brother, jens, came today to the cafe. we sat and he said a bit, but mostly we just sat. there wasnt much to say. the death of his brother was a major shock.. he has fallen back to using heroin, says himself he knows it wont cure anything and that its stupid, but for the moment it works. life in the moment is the only thing most of the people i work with know. tommorrow is always an unclear concept.. in a way, thats biblical, you shouldnt put things off till tommorrow- they just have non-kindom things to do. and after such a loss, its easy to choose the wrong way- all his well meaning friends keep giving him a free hit. gee thanks. jens seemed like only a shadow of himself.. be it from the drugs or the sorrow.